So things have been nuts for me with graduate school. We have been on a crazy run of exams before spring break. I took a 4 hour exam this morning. Sadly, no I’m not joking. I also have 4 more exams this week. Due to this, my diet and exercise as been put on the back burner. I’ve been working out, but I legit have had 0 time to even go to the store. So my diet was pushing it and super limited. Meeting calorie goals but my nutrition was not as on par as it has been. As much as I don’t want to admit it, this resulted in lunch today being taco bell. Simply because I had no food to even meal prep. Yep. I exceeded my calorie goal in one meal…Initially I felt really guilty, but then I was like…wtf….why? Which is the point of this post…screw ups happen.
Diets and weight loss is never linear. Even when you’re perfect, sometimes you’re weight doesn’t match. ITS OK! Even if your weight matches some bad choices, THATS OK! Even though my weight has been dropping consistently for about two months, it wont always be like this. ALSO OK!
In the long run, if you want healthy habits (that will lead to weight loss) to be sustainable, you will randomly “screw up” or have a bad days. The key is to not beat yourself up over it and just keep going. Recognized it happened and say, tomorrow I’ll do better. I’m 100% certain that because of my t-bell adventure my weight will be up this week. It sucks, but so be it. Life happens. Even though I’m way over on calorie goals for the day, I’m still going to the gym tonight. I still plan to try to get back on track and do better tomorrow. Its all I can do. Keep your head up friends and keep trying. That is the key. You got this!
This morning I stepped on the scale and was shocked, it read 234.4lbs. That is a 2.6lbs loss since lat week. HECK YES! I was surprised because this entire week I’ve been gaining and losing this same dang pound. To be fair, I wasn’t surprised that I was gaining and losing that one pound because I wasn’t eating the cleanest and a was a bit over on my calorie several days this week. I just had a lot of celebrations, 2 birthdays, small groups, a pizza party with my class…etc. And I was ok with not having a perfect diet week to live life. Its all about balance I suppose. Just continued working out. For whatever reason my body dropped a ton of the weight today. Either way, thanks body! haha
EXERCISE: Last week I lifted 3x that week. I have an ok run. A rough run and a really awesome run. In fact, I ran for an entire 30 mins for the first time since I’ve started back up. I’m super pumped about it. =] I’m aware that its no big deal for some, but for me, I’m really proud of that.
DIET: I’ve stuck to my 1600cal/week goal for the most part. I splurged about 300cals over 3 days this last week but I just tried to be a bit more active on those days. Such is life sometimes. I’m right back to my clean eating again this week. I had a great Meijer haul with a ton of produce Sunday. I’m loving eating all my fresh veggies and fruits this week. I’ve been trying new ways to sneak veggies in and I’ve actually had a good time trying new things. I’d highly encourage all of you to try new recipes when things feel like they’re getting old.
Thats all for now!
Peak Weight: 250.0 lbs
Starting Weight: 245.5 lbs
Current Weight: 234.4 lbs
Total Weight Loss: 15.6 lbs
I’m hesitant to write this post because its a really personal and vulnerable thing for me, but here goes nothing. This morning I woke up, checked my phone and the date hit me. It has been exactly 1 year since my break up with my ex. Before you freak out, don’t worry I’m not obsessing. I just am good at remembering dates of things. Even if it would be nice to sometimes forget.
Have I dated a handful of people since then? Yeah, sure. Has anything really compared in commitment or intensity of my relationship with M? No. M and I have a weird distant relationship now. We went from best friends to ending it, and that was really hard. I think we both want to be friends, but the longer we go, the more I think we can’t do it. Just too much heartbreak and feelings.
Something that bothers me is hes had 2 “girlfriends” (
well a rebound and one) since me and I’ve had 0 official boyfriends. I don’t know why, but it feels like I lost because of that. I’m aware that those thoughts aren’t rational, but its how I feel. If I was completely honest about it, it still hurts when I think about it. I was broken up with because he couldn’t love me and I currently can’t find anyone else. That just feels really icky. I wish I could shake this feeling today, but I’m not sure I can. I guess today healing looks like just being okay with uncomfortable and moving forward.
Hope you all have a better day than me,
So I was debating doing a measurement update once a month or so. That way I could work on seeing progress in more than just scale #s. I took these measurements Tuesday at my apartment, so its nothing fancy like BMI charts and such. So its been officially about a month since my highest weight/I’ve started this journey and here are my current measurements this far:
Neck- 16 ins. L Arm-17 ins. R Arm- 17.5ins. Bust- 48ins. Ribs- 44ins Waist- 40ins. Hips- 50ins. L Thigh- 24.25ins. R Thigh- 23.5ins.
Current Weight-237.0 lbs
Sadly I didn’t think to do this until now so I don’t have my starting numbers, but I know at the very least my hips have gone down. I know this because I am fitting into smaller pants than I was before considering the bigger pants used to be tighter and a bit uncomfortable. So here is to attempting to track progress beyond the scale.
That is it for now,
So this week I lost 2lbs. WHOOP WHOOP! I’m glad all this diet and exercise is paying off. Especially since prioritizing it with school has been especially hard.
EXERCISE: Working out this week was variable. There were two days where I went hard. One where I went to the gym to just walk to simply hit 10,000 steps and I nixed the 4th workout. I know its not the best but we had a massive module exam Monday so my focus had to go to school. I just made sure I was hitting minimums.
DIET: I ate superduper clean this week. I think this is why my weight loss is still going the way its going. We shall see how this next week goes with Valentines day happening and a friend dinner planed. Hopefully I can stay on track!
Peak Weight: 250.0 lbs
Starting Weight: 245.5 lbs
Current Weight: 237.0 lbs
Total Weight Loss: 13.0 lbs
So for those of you who don’t know, I’m in graduate school….. for a second time. oops. Hah! To be specific, I am in school to become a physician assistant. Some of you may already know, but the first year of PA school is crazy intense. Most people will admit its harder than medical school simply because of the speed of the material. My cohort and I basically just study all the time. Eat sleep and breath studying. Study, study, and more studying. But for whatever reason, this module I cannot focus. For the life of me, no matter what setting I put myself in, I am having a hard time focusing. I don’t know if its being anxious, if its because I haven’t been sleeping well, or if I’m just overwhelmed. This is not like my type A self. Usually I am that person that gets tons of things done off the check list everyday. As of late all I can manage is minimal studying, exercising regularly, and attempting to keep track of my diet. That minimal studying is no conducive for the intensity of my program. Whatever it is, I hope it turns around soon. What are your tips for focusing and getting things done?
That is all for now.